Damage.

I rarely speak on how i feel much but HATE being damaged.There are multipule way i can explain what im saying but im talking about someone doing curtain things to upset me knowing the outcome will be negitive.My mindset is what I will die will so I try to protect it by any means possible but I have to let curtian people close making me drop my gaurd hoping I don't end up regerting doing so.If I allow the hutful things to keep being said then i will lose my pride in the mist of trying to keep the peace.My only defence is to hurt back contuining a damaging cycle. I hate being the way Iam but I can honestly say i love my changing self.

I dont know how to fix being damaged so I live everyday on egde in fear of myself not knowing what is real.I blame myself for alot and that might not be helping with the topic im adressing. I belive we can help each other out more than we know only if we trust in each other word are ture and not have that fear to say YES I AM DAMAGED!