Hive OCD Waifu! Training for more than +300hrs!
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"THE ONE HIVE IS REAL!"
(I shall be the Pirate Queen!)
After 44 days, i have reached illustration level art!
After 44 days, i have reached illustration level art!
Sorry to everyone when i suddenly went total black out. I have been facing alot of issues, but the biggest factor was a self-reflection and possibly no-internet connection. UWU
I took for granted the wifi connection at Aunties house. Realizing on the 1st week staying with my lola (Grandma relative). Wasn't high tech as to be expected in a 3rd world country and a room that looks worse than most prisons within USA Murica.
...
Where should i begin.
I guess to start with its
Grrrrrrrrrrr i wanna sleep but, my exitement as im writing this post for people. Especially those humans from OCD and HivePH Communities.
Getting very little sleep (2-4hrs) With the rest spent on.
Preparing my day (1hrs)
Commute (1:30hr x 2) *Back and forth
College (2:30hrs - 3:45hrs / 6days a week)
Study (1hr)
Homework (1-2hrs)
Chores (30min)
Sleep (2-4hrs)
Leisure (1-2hrs)
ART ART ART ART (6hrs - HOWEVER I FEEL LIKE)(*Grrrr)
First of all, yessss. The website looks like it was made in 2000s, im having a migraine especially since we use it regularly.
Submissions of task
MCL Black Board
One MCL
Emails
- Outlook
- Microsoft Teams
Im starting to hear voices in my head and i agree to an extent on what they say.
But i should save this topic on another post.
After my 507th layer and 44days later
After my 507th layer and 44days later
*(2560 x 1440)
The Image displayed on Peakd got compressed so much. GRRRRRRRRR
So i placed a link to a discord attachment address, the cover is 1280 x 720 only. BRUH! That's like 1/4th the total number of pixels. I suggest clicking on the link or google drive to see the images with as much detail as possible.
Hmm, which part should i start 1st.
Ughh
...
Ohh right, how about i mention my drawing of the OCD waifu from 1-year ago.
https://peakd.com/artbees/@takuri/starting-from-the-top-with-a-hat
This was on Jan,21,2023. After finding my @takuri account stored in a USB. After a year or so after the dog blunder i did, i tried coming back. Already apologized at the time and asked for forgiveness for those i affected, if im going to step-into this crypto thing once more. I should at least do something to make amends. The only thing i could provide was my art.
Although at the time i was a 16-17yrs old kiddo dealing with alot of abuse. I know keeping myself composed and calm should have been the proper way of handling things.
Looking back at it, a 16yrs old kid doing crypto stuff is already a HUGE RED FLAG.
Here is my 1st and 2nd post, this was on steemit.
https://peakd.com/introduction/@takuri/hello
https://peakd.com/digitalart/@takuri/a-long-while-ago-2-weeks
We moved into the city when i was 14yrs old. For the entirety of my life until then was within in a 20km radius around a rural rice farm village. This was my 7th time visiting a town/city and i finally get to live with my father of whom was absent during my childhood. He only showed up for about 0-15 days a year in my life, working as an OFW *(Overseas Filipino Worker).
To keep things short.
- City life shock
- Smog filled air
- Km Commute distance
- City laws and School codes
- Absentee Father
- Drug and Crime heavy neighborhood
- Cannot touch grass or trees *(All concrete)
It would have been fine, but i dunno why. Perhaps this was the year alot of bomb-shells was dropped on me.
My father is a electrical engineer, initially i thought it was cool of him traveling abroad to work was pretty cool. I had ideas of my head of him being inside of USA or Germany and earn lots of money, turns out he was working on places like Saudi Arabia and Nigeria.
No offense to those folks. Lets just say, he wasn't earning much more than what a Filipino working inside of Philippines would make. The main reason he worked there was simply hold a job locally for more than a couple months for him is impossible, because of his ego and drinking problem. So applying for overseas work was a better alternative because of the demand and less competition.
Saudi and Nigeria are in need of English speaking electrical engineers during the 90s and late 2010s. A lot of Filipino's that couldn't work within the Philippines usually ended up here because of our fluent English and cheap labor.
I have to admit that, working overseas can be tough.
For the decades he spent traveling, im not sure why he didn't climb the corporate ladder. The highest he was able to reach was floor manager at some Nigerian soda factory, making sure the electrical section stay operational.
Downward Spiral
- Didn't keep up or improve his craft: Back in the 90s, Capable of installing a light bulb could have gotten you a middle income job here in the Philippines. Nowadays, Engineering students are required to code. *He struggles to use Microsoft Word
- Spent his savings on Jewelry, Vehicles, luxury good and LOTS AND LOTS OF BOOZE!
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Didn't innovate/invent a product: Most successful engineers that reached higher positions like chief or director used their knowledge to create patents that helped the company or earn money as a side project.
Lack of company loyalty: During his years abroad, if one company offered a slightly higher pay. He would take it at a drop of the hat. Although he works overseas, its not like he becomes a regular employee for years. Companies hire my father as a contractor, if getting fired was common. Because of the job market at the time, getting hired within a month or two was just as easy.
Grrrrrrrrrrrr, i must avoid making this post into a 7k word documentation. Alright Flashback to current me.
9-Months Ago
Today
The only thing i could say is. @zeroooc
HAHAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAH
MUAUHAHAHAHHA
I was expecting around 10yrs for me to catch up to your art level, but by the looking at the pace im going. Probably around a few more years before i catch up and WHOOP your buttocks.
Same for @jijisaurart, GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR youuuuu think just because your a ranker of the Splinterlands art contest means you win. NEVER! I reject the notion that i shall lose to a Berry bush burner.
Yess im going to bring up the law of causality that states:
"The longer Takuri plays a game of Don't Starve Together with JIJI, the higher the likelyhood of Taku's Berry bush farm getting destroyed increases exponentially"
We have played for about a dozen hours now, 5-worlds. And in all of those games, my Berry bush farm always gets destroyed within the first 30-days in game (3hrs)
JIJI Post (May 3)
Grrrrrrrr, I was fighting a pack of wolves by myself. JIJI just watched with joy and ecstasy as i got shredded into tiny bits and pieces.
After i was deds, JIJI just accepted her fate.
Apparently @demotry had set the world to nightmare/Iron-man mode. *If everyone dies the world is deleted.
Source
The Start of my +300hrs Training
Sketch
This started 2-days after i posted , Sorry @wittyzell
https://peakd.com/hiveph/@takuri/my-update-about-being-kicked-out-situation
I was doing some self-reflection. Thinking back about a year ago, getting commissions here and there was epic. But if i wanted to get a job i needed to get serious.
So i started looking for gigs online such as Linkedin, Facebook Marketplace, Fiverr, Discord-servers and local area. The only ones available at the time were commissions, i took the one's i was able to get and tried my best to land a job. Be it Salary, Project based or contractual.
However there were many hurdles of which im going to simplify into five factors.
- Time difference: Im not sure about you, but the majority of the people i interact with are within the American or European Continent. I have a 11-13hrs difference for Americans and 7-9hrs for Europeans.
This is very bad not only for me but for my fellow partners, Not only did they had to factor in my awful schedule compatibility and me usually sleepy (2am) during meetings.
- Distance: HMMmmmm, i live in on a Archipelago. Mountainous jungle island chain with a distance of more than +10,000km
To put it bluntly, im super far away.
No College degree or passport: Just this alone, eliminated me from the majority of official company positions. Both foreign and local studios, *Imagine hiring some 3rd-worlder Filipino kid.
Domestic Competition: Considering the hurdles the employer has to go through just for me, yeah. Hiring your local fellow American/European artist is much much better than hiring me. Even if my monetary compensation is much smaller, the hassle is just not worth it.
AI Grifters: The damage to beginner-Amateur artist,editors,musicians, basically all digital creative field has been gutted. Unless its a tight nit community or you have some fame. Getting commissions at this level is almost none-existent now.
The life-line ladder has been rugged pulled, either you get a college degree or spend over a decade with no form compensation mastering a skill to industry level just to even start earning your first $1
All stolen work, the individuals and starving artist has reached a new low. "Helping the common folk" has been the biggest grift to screw over normal guys for the profits of a few companies.
Last i remember piracy was for the little guys, fighting the super greedy companies.
Didn't knew companies could pirate billions of images toss em into a blender and monetize it with no consequence.
NICE!
Keeping all these points in mind. I only have a few options.
Work labor at chemical factories / sweatshops
Just end it all
(Commit Suicide)
GET GUD
AND SO I WORKED MY ASS OFF TO FIX THE SKILL ISSUE.
GETTING CONSISTENT COMMISSIONS AND HIGH PAYING ONES.
TEAMS, PROJECTS, STUDIOS WILLING TO GO BEND OVER BACKWARDS FOR ME
EMOTIONAL SUPPORT
WHOOOOPING @ZEROOOC
SENDING @jijisaurart FLYING
Character
Commonly Asked Questions:
Why did you change design so much?
-- The Old OCD Waifu was based on Steemit while the new one is modeled after hive.
Woah BIG BOOBA!
-- This is her aged up version, she now packing the big guns! And large Booty.
The Posh plushie and OCD staff dissapeared!?
-- I decided to move the staff and plushie on another drawing, because it would spoil too much of the Great Fork War
Great Fork War?
-- A fan-made romanticizing of what went down at 2019. Just imagine it as Folk-tales/Epics but with Communities depicted as Anime Waifus.
-- I was going to make her more battered and with scars, but for now. Imma do the clean and cutest version.
I NOTICED SOMETHING WITHIN THE 3RD WEEK
That my hands weren't shaking as much, i feel more calm as i started my day waking up naturally. Instead of being awoken at 5am to open the computer shop. Didn't woke up at the middle of the night because of my parents fighting.
For the first few weeks, i was able to recover peacefully and became more composed overall.
Then i realized something, im now drawing in peace.
- Nobody was disturbing me every 5-min to exchange coins for the piso-net.
- I wasn't sore from the 1-2hrs of chores i would normally do.
- My mental state wasn't shambled by morning shouting threats.
I was able to focus more, my hand coordination was better and most importantly. The feeling that anyone passionate in their craft would know.
Going with the flow and being absorbed into the process.
This feeling that i haven't experienced ever since moving to the city. I remember now, and so. I started watching youtube tutorials.
Also i used this Devious fellow as the refference, changed the color palette to match the hive theme
There are dozens of vids, but they are deep within my history bar. UWU
Im not sure how long i trained. But for the first 3-weeks, i just practiced and after i realized the sudden jump of my capabilities. Watching the tutorials and executing them with 70% retention of quality.
Astonished by the revelation, i decided to start my OCD Waifu drawing. At this point, i think i had finally reached LVL.8 Artist! ILLUSTRATION LEVEL!
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!
Foreground
Foreground
First of all yess, i did all the line art by hand. If i start using the line tool like what the videos suggested. My art skill won't improve as much as I'd like to.
But it's mostly because i wanna test myself with this new found POWER!
For the ship reference i used
I took some liberties, messing the the placement and structure to fit the art style and perspective i was going for.
The Waifu should be the center of attention, guns, weed and the sun should be secondary.
Ohh right about the weed. For some reason, there's more weed inside the OCD discord server Pound per pound than the entire supply of illegal drugs circulating inside of my neighborhood.
Although at first i was shocked and on edge about it, i learned to get along, tolerate and even goof around with the notion.
Source
Hhahahaha Be sure to toss ye marijuana over-board and smoke thy blunts.
And GOD FORBID your @derangedvisions bringing variants like AK-47. I think funny enough, the penalty for bringing an actual illegal fire-arm such as a real Soviet AK-47 is more lenient than 501 grams of weed.
But turns out people who smoke weed are cool, made me more accepting and open of drug users in my area. "Let them be"
Granted Weed is safer than Shaboo, heroine, rugby and other substances.
Background
Background
AGHHHHHHHHHH
This feeling is amazing, i was able to control my brush all the way from big and solid then minuscule but faint. The level of detail was amazing. Compared to just a few months ago, i didn't expect to reach this level within 44-days.
*EVIL LAUGHTER!
I think this was already around the +30 day mark. I had already gotten internet on the 3rd week thanks to the money given to me by @demotry using coins.ph
HHahahah, this was a test run. 1 PHP = $0.02. Demo demo sent 4000php and hive and hbd
A lot of others donated as well
@incublus
@nitsuga12
@nyxlabs
@jijisaurart
@cthings
@tpkidkai
@guri-gure
@emanate-artworx
I cannot thank you enough! You folks are the reason why my internet connection is still up.
Taku Promise, once i make it. Getting job and making the moneys, i get back at you all!
Also i think with the donations alone i almost reached $200
I feel guilty, didn't even do a single commission to earn a cent of it.
GRRRRRRRRRR!
The High Seas!
I can rest in peace now
FINALLY IM DONE! My isolated training is complete!
Not sure what to say, i cannot wait for the reactions of everyone when they see my development.
Hhahah, creating this post took me the entire day. Wasn't really sure on how i should structure this, what to include or not. But most importantly
Epic le Sea and sky
After watching a few vids, especially these 2.
Grrrrr, these one's were super helpful! I was able to absorb 110% of the information, muhahahahah.
I can feel several inches closer to @zeroooc.
So yeah, after i make this post. Im going to stick a more relaxed weekly posting. And give a heads up this time, when i go into another training arc.
Unlike the past me
4-yrs ago
3-months ago
(TODAY)
NOW, i can apply to not just normal jobs, but other roles as well. Such as illustrator, designer and other stuff.
If it requires 2-4yrs experience, imma list some misleading information like (2yrs working with bakeon studio *Discord server) Posting work examples etc.
Im just going to hope that my art skill is soooooo good. That whatever $15 minimum wage job im applying to falls for it and just hire's me regardless of the many hurdles mentioned before.
HECK! Maybe freelance and commissions at illustration level will be more than enough to sustain me. Who knows?!
For the mean time, imma make post about college, updates and POV applying to jobs as a digital artist in a AI ART world. HHahaha this will be a interesting topic to make a post and VIDEO ABOUT!
Grrrrrrr, imma start doing popular anime/game art to farm likes, followers and subs. So that i can grow my social media and become more appealing to my employers and commissioners.
Links and Other stuff
Google Drive File
https://drive.google.com/drive/folder/1kP4Ef9GXPnU97rGONQGneHwvyuzm3XYe?usp=drive_link
Inspiration: @zeroooc (Your done!)
https://peakd.com/@zeroooc
Inspiration: @jijisaurart (Im top now!)
https://peakd.com/@jijisaurart
My youtube channel
https://www.youtube.com/@TAKURI
Medibang (Drawing program used)
https://medibangpaint.com/en/
Im so glad i came back to hive and met you all!
I'm really not sure if i could have done this final +300hrs hail Mary training arc to improve myself and not just end it.
Working labor would have been fine and i think sweatshops like fabric (Making cloths) would have been okay since tailoring is part of the creative field. *But i think its more on quantity rather than quality there.
But ultimately, even if i could work. I had no motivation, abusive household, and double in-grown toe nail (Left and right).
If i have been a farm hand ever since kinder garden, i don't really have any bonds asides from my friends back in visayas and drawing. If you take those away and tell me to grit my teeth and survive for the equivalent of how long i have lived so far.
Then yeah, FUCK IT! I DON'T WANNA LIVE ANYMORE!
I'll try to talk and act like the normal schizo takuri you have known for a while. Imma keep my self in check at all times, especially since i cannot permanently delete anything here on hive.
So i am serious about the few personal information i share here.
Huhuhu, i guess that's about it. Thanks for reading!
Ohh wait, last thing. Although my art skill is decen't. I didn't grew up with the internet and all its intricacies.
Sites and places to go work at art jobs/gigs/freelance whatever are a mystery to me. Since i only started drawing digital 4yrs ago, when i bought my own drawing tablet using my own money.
Drawing tablet
https://peakd.com/update/@takuri/wuts-up-blue-screen-of-death
Acidyo Fan-art (2019)
9-Months Ago
Today
YESSS HAHAAHAH! I have been using the same reference all those years ago! It was originally MIMI, she a princess of an evil empire.
*UwU minor spoiler, but can you guess what's missing that was present on the original? And why is she holding her right arm up?
Granted the Cat Girl got turned into a fish *(Whale). Phaaaa this is sooooo cringe, obsessing something from 4yrs ago.
Resorting to default taku defence tactics. *Blaming the instigator @acidyo!
Grrrrrrrr im sure to you westerners, casually upvoting someone for about $25 is no biggie. But for 15yrs old taku, that was 4-months of saving money. And commenting!
*In popular sites like reddit and pinterest, especially with my art level at the time. Getting comments was almost none-existent. Commissions? What are those?
And this GIGA-CHAD just dumped $25 like with was nothing.
(Killer Robot - 2019)
WHAT MUST I GIVE IN RETURN!
HHhahaahh, so yeah. This post is payback for all the stuff you did for me @acidyo and the wider Hive community!
*Especially that time you went to talk 1 to 1 with the weed dog guy, i was expecting maybe a mod or curator would mediate. Nahhhhhh just the Founder of OCD himself, no biggie.
But yeah i took web 2.0 norms about what's fair and just and applied it to the web 3.0 world known as hive. I still have alot to learn in terms of the norms in hive, navigating and understanding the blockchain, improving my Creative skills, finally most importantly.
Developing my self, since i didn't have a father figure. *Technically i have one, but he has been more of a trauma factory than anything of note.
I don't think Alcohol or Smoking would ever enter my system, i have adapted to just avoid it at the slightest wiff.
Some might say that's good, But just imagine that one guy who never drinks or smokes. But he draws Big booba and weed.
*Note as i was about to post it, i saw that i could include beneficiaries. Normally i would be all for it, including people and peakd. SOrry i need the moneys, once my situation is more stable i'll go back to normal.
Alright its already noon here. Im going to post this after dinner around 7pm, that way i could surprise everyone.
MUAHHAHAHAHAH!
-- Takuri
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