Making a decision to help my Mental Health 🤔😡 time to move on. Valentines love sent to a few special people 💝♥❣

I have had another day filled with mixed emotions about me falling out with my youngest sister over something I haven't got a clue about, I have done something that has upset her but haven't a clue what as she won't talk to me. I am not going to push it or try and make up, I have had enough of being the one that gets the blame when something goes wrong in there lives and in the words of my daughter Forget them they don't deserve you. My daughters know what my family are like and they know how they mess with my Mental Health,

They obviously don't care about me or they wouldn't do it or maybe they get a kick out of it. This time I am not going back as I did the last time we fell out, I don't need there negativity or how two faced they are, My youngest sister used to say nasty things about my girls I always bit my lip but I say one thing about there son the exact same thing she and her husband have said then I am deleted and blocked, Well it goes both ways from now on, you may have blocked me on Facebook but guess what I can still block yo so if you ever try to add me back you can't You can now take your negativity and energy draining attitude and shove it where the sun don't shine.

I am 56 and still think about them more than me and my own family, I look after people and always have, I put everyone ahead of me. I didn't like confrontation, I hate arguing and I don't like upsetting anyone, why can't my own family treat me the same.

My Mental Health has took a bashing over my 56 years and 80% of it comes from my parents and siblings. They have made me the way I am and they don't care so maybe its time for me to stop caring about them. I have no family now apart from the one I have made with hubby and my 2 girls. We don't try and hurt each other, no one things there better than each other nor do we add pressure to each others lives. That's the way families should be, I am done with ever being apart of that family. I haven't lost anything as they did nothing for me, its them who have lost me and there's no turning back, Just got to get my head in order first.

I have been spreading the love, Its Valentines day tomorrow, me and hubby don't buy each other anything as we buy each other what we need and don't want anymore rubbish. I do send my daughter a I love you Present, just so they know mum is thinking about them.

I am on Amazon Prime, I can pick something then get it sent to there house for free, I bought Jessica and Nichola a box, Nichola received hers today as I won't be seeing her tomorrow she has a few things that need doing. She was shocked when she got it as she wasn't expecting anything plus the label had her name a different way, she opened them and took out the chocolates then realised they were from me, she gave me a cuddle and thought it was sweet, Jessica gets hers tomorrow. I also bought mum in law a box, she lost her hubby last year and lives alone now so won't get any gifts for Valentines, I added a card that said We all Love you,* She phoned today to say thank you and that she is blessed to have us in her life, made me smile knowing she was happy..

Its time to start thinking about the family I have around me, the ones that really count not the ones that bring me down. I don't wish anything bad on them just to stay away from my family, No more chances I am done, I don't need or want them and I certainly am not going to get into a dark place over them. One thing that I can do that helps me heal is to be with the people that are real and who are there for me.

I am sending out a ((HUG)) to anyone that needs is plus a lot of love ♥♥ to you all.