Ending thoughts

Life is the most precious thing and everyone has the desire to live a happy life. Unfortunately life is the most uncertain and death is the most certain incident for humans. Nobody has the power to break the shackles of death.

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I am still alive. I am physically fit and young in my present time. But there is no guarantee I can survive till the next moment because I don't know what will happen to me in the next moment. I think not knowing that when I will die he is also a kind of blessing. It allows me not to think too much about death and enjoy a good and carefree life. But what if I know I have limited time in this world? You might be thinking why I am saying about it. Ok then I am sharing the matter.

One of my father's best friend were suffering for cancer and the it was the situation when it was too late to treat him. Doctor said that he had few more months left. I am just wondering how he felt when he knew that he had maximum 2-3 months in this world. Didn't he felt heartbroken? Didn't her tried to stay alive till his last breath? Finding the answer of those questions was impossible for me as I never dared to ask him.

Doctor strictly prohibited from smoking as he had lung cancer and smoking could consume his lifespan faster. He knew it but he always found ways to smoke secretly. I just couldn't understand why he done such a thing even if he knew it just leading him to his death faster which is already about to end. At first,I thought he loved to do smoking and he wanted to die without any regret even if it cost his lifespan and he didn't have the desire of living.

As a result his body started to collapse very fast and he lost the energy to move by his own. He had no any other options except laying on bed. He knew that his ending time is almost about to come which was decided. But in that time he wanted to survive again. He even tried to reach for those people who have supernatural powers ( I don't think they have such a power) to revive him. Before his death he wasted lots of money for such kind of thing as he was desperate but it was too late for him.

He knew that he would die for sure. At the beginning time he didn't care about life even after know the truth but he realized the value of life after his body collapsed fully and he lost most of his power. I don't know what about his feeling but I think he must be regretted for his actions. I feel he may survive one more month if he didn't smoke. I wish I could know the thoughts of him before he died.