A belief I no longer hold

>What's something you used to believe in strongly? But no longer do? What changed your mind?

i am so delightful that this topic is raised. This is my story Actually people have their perspective shift while growing up. My parents was strictly protective about having friends but they were known for that

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Through the process of growing up my parents where so strict whenever we talk about friends they will always buy us Teddy and anything playful for us to keep the bond between me and my siblings. My dad always take us to school and make sure he brings us back when coming back we will take our bath, eat and then proceed to our day homework from school after that we sleep or we have fun together. While growing up i never thought of this after some years my dad passed out i was left with only a single mom that kept to his husband promised. She started from where my dad stopped

my lonely world begin my small family are my favorite while on the watch of my parents the indulge this beliefs on us that the world is wicked finding friends is not real out there and they didn't even trust their relative we all kept it as a true belief and that's making me feel strange around my peers group and colleagues i maintained this belief through out my primary school and getting into my secondary School i met friends by name princess and mary i took them like my sister's. I always invite princess to our place though my mom liked her but later on she reminds me of my belief that making friends isn't a problem will the come to your rescue when you need them the most? I was speechless

Unfortunately I was withdrawn out from the school for some reasons kept to herself after my junior year level in this school i met another friend call blessing though she wasn't my age but i wanted to differentiate the distinguishing different between an older friend and younger friend and if she will be accepted thought she will teach me a lot but my mom never liked her i was disappointed

Graduating to my senior year level was another school i met four group of friends: Benita, Olivia, Victoria, Angela that is me the A4 girls we do everything at the same time we talk and gist i really liked them and Olivia was my best she has a sense of humor at times goes the other girls saw me different and a lose but Olivia understand me the more It hurts 😓 i went back to my other school that I wrote my junior waec (west African examination) then i met another girl name ruth i noticed she wasn't real that was how I drew my conclusions that friends out there are dangerous but a girl i met in my final year name glory and another girl name faith

Glory was nothing but a very good friend to me we planned our future together and give each other assurance and also a tasks to perform but both of them travelled after their exams and got married without accomplishing our future tasks together this hurts so much that I vow not to engage with any one again

one day I let it out by crying out loud and profusely😭 this is affecting me Among my peer group same here with my siblings I try hard to make friends but isn't working. Leaving home makes me change my mind against my earlier believe I am grown to face the world my parents beliefs was their beliefs i don't know what inspired them to do that 🙇 but is making me feel pains and sleepless nights, coming closer to me you will know me better This is the belief i can no longer hold on to bad perpestive about life no matter how dangerous the world is I will face it, life is precious and short i have to be happy ☺️ I know they were trying to look out for me Mom, dad I am a big girl this is my own life to live and be proud of me Is not about making money here but i have friends that shares with my post Thanks for sharing with my post🤗

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